On our way home from a memorial service yesterday, I heard the song entitled "Where are you Christmas?" Emotional overload. Up until this year, Christmas represented a cheerful and magical time. Childlike excitement mixed with our faith in Jesus Christ. This year is different somehow. Maybe it is through grief. Maybe it is my new outlook on this evil world. But for the first time I can honestly say, I don't want anything material for Christmas. Instead, I want the commercialism that is mocking this holiday and masking itself as "the giving season" to disappear. Imagine if Christmas was really just a time we got together as family and friends. The sad thing is I had to add "just" as if it were a tiny increment of the holiday.
At first I thought this was a bad thing. I thought that I lost my Christmas spirit but yesterday my cousin mentioned, that just maybe I have finally found it. Perhaps the sadness I feel is not a loss of spirit but instead compassion. Where has that feeling been all those years? Masked in pretty paper and tiny lights.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQ7W6bsvBCo
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